How To Become Yourself

It’s June 2014 and I’ve just turned 21. Happy Birthday, me. Happy You-Made-It-21-Years. Happy You-Haven’t-Been-Happy-Since-April. The cards say Here’s to 21 More. Celebrate! Buy yourself something nice! The cards say Finally! At Last!
It’s June 2014 and I am 21. It’s 2 AM and finally, at last, everyone has gone to bed. I’m not in bed. I am awake. There’s cake in the kitchen and beer bottles in the sink. There are balloons which are l