First Time at an Orgy?

Ruler of the orgy
Without rules, we are nothing. This, anyway, is what I’ve been thinking lately, as I drift somewhat aimlessly through my nights and days, realizing ever more clearly that my lack of an internal sense of order or even much in the way of a code to live by has necessarily resulted in an inescapable sense of ennui, one that could probably be gotten rid of if I just had any discipline, or some sort of sense of external structure. Or maybe relevant pharmaceuticals. Bu