Why I Almost Drank After 12 Years Sober

I’m in the living room, when I realise it.I can’t fight this anymore. So now I’m in the hallway.I can take one step forward. One step to reach my coat and put it on.Or I can take the stairs.The stairs away from the front door.Up to my husband, who is with our newborn daughter.They are only one floor away.These two people, who were so unlikely to show up in my life.They are miracles to me.My new world. The one I fought so fucking hard for.It’s only upstairs.I could go up t