Untitled(I Scare When Someone Else Is Scared For Me)

i feel like pessoa’s bookkeeper who lives with and without hope. the green trees keep one eye closed in a breeze. i’m not that scared. they wanted to take me to the emergency room when they checked my bp(blood pressure) five years ago. april the doc at zoom care said there was a risk in not having me as an in-patient. i guess they can’t help me if i get a heart attack. i don’t want to have to stay for an extended stay in a hospital while they figure out how to lower my bp