'It makes me feel awful … I loved him,' says father on trial for killing son

Three weeks before John Mcrae knifed his son to death, he feared his drunken son so much that he slept with a baseball bat for protection.
The old ex-con, now 73, could once handle himself with his fists, but these days he gets winded from a flight of stairs.
So he kept a bat close by for fear his son, Michael, would make good on his threats to kill “the rotten old bastard.”
And on the evening of July 7, 2017, after another day of drinking and fighting with his son over ren